| And A Chesire Cat Smile From Beginning To End |
[17 Mar 2005|09:26am] |
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Well, i'm not sure any one has noticed, but i've become very disinterested in LJ. It's something I simply don't have a lot of interest in lately. I've also been very busy. Oh so busy. Any how, I don't really care for it any more. It's been rather interesting and I wouldn't have changed a thing it brought, but i'm done with it for now. Maybe i'll make another some day. As for this one, i'll leave it as is. I'll still check back to read the entries by everyone once in a while, so i'd like it if you left me on your friend list, but if not, I understand, and so be it.
Evolution is of the essence and is quite the priority. We must grow to know our purpose and i'm still finding mine. I hope you'll all be okay, and know that even in the worst times, you're still alive. There's always tomorrow, so why live just for today? I want to breath like I never have before.
As a closing note, I want to say that i've changed a lot through out the course of this journal. The person that walked into it never knew the person that's walking out of it, and that makes me very happy to be able to say.
As a secondary closing note, I want to ask one favor of everyone. If I was to ask you only one thing in my whole life, it would be this- read 'The Celestine Prophecy'. It's a perspective changing book i'm sure i've told many of you about. It's a four book series, and they're not all called 'The Celestine Prophecy'. I'm sure you'll find the rest some how. Be it asking me or doing it on your own.
Keep on going, all. It's never the end.
~Little Living Boy, Richard
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| Long Time, No Update |
[24 Feb 2005|07:20am] |
Knowing that my time to do this post is very limited here at school, i'll just say the things I want to say.
I'm going to Megacon tomorrow. I really can't wait. It's going to be awesome. The EGA moogle costume sounds like it's come together wonderfully. I can't wait to buy stuff, play games, see PLC and so much more. There's an official Homestar Runner booth there, and the creators of the series might be there too! I'll be back Sunday.
I'm leaving for Kate's tonight. My dad's taking me to her house after I go to his, which i'll be doing after work, which i'll going to after school. I really hope I don't forget anything.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| #28 - 'Andy, You're a Star' by The Killers |
[23 Feb 2005|09:44pm] |
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One two…
On the field I remember you were incredible
Hey shut up hey shut up yeah
On the field I remember you were incredible
Hey shut up hey shut up yeah
On the match with the boys, you think you’re alone
With the pain that you drain from love
In a car with a girl promise me she’s not your world
Cos’ Andy you’re a star
Get down...
Leave your number on the locker and I'll give you a call
Hey shut up hey shut up yeah
Leave your legacy in gold on the plaques that line the hall
Hey shut up hey shut up yeah
On the street such a sweet face jump in town
In the staff when the verdict is in
In a car with a girl promise me she’s not your world
Cos’ Andy you’re a star in nobody’s eyes but mine
Andy you’re a star in nobody’s eyes but mine
Andy you’re a star in nobody’s eyes but mine
Andy you’re a star in nobody’s eyes
In nobody’s eyes but mine.
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| Willpower Isn't In The Cards |
[17 Feb 2005|09:26am] |
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I suppose I haven't updated in a while. It's no wonder since I have so little to say. Or, maybe perhaps I have too much to say. I guess i'm not sure. Where do I begin?
Valentine's Day was great. Or, at least it would have been if not for the fact that my mother got completely drunk and was yelling at me for asking her if she'd drive Jessica home (something she does at most once a month). I mean, to begin with her driving me places, she gives me shit every time I even [I]ask[/I] any thing of her like that. On the rare occasions I miss my bus, and she has to inconvenience her self to drive me to school, I end up paying her damn gas. She tried getting me to pay for washing her car the other day too. I buy my own clothes, I don't need to be buying stuff for her too. Also, could she at least have chosen a night other than my night with Jessica to get wasted? She's so damn pathetic it's disgusting. I'm tired of covering for her bull shit.
I caught my dad smoking pot last night. Granted that there's way worse things he could do but he just had a child and he has a new family. He doesn't need to throw things away like that. It's not like he's got the money to spare either. It was while my grandmother was visiting too. I asked him what the fuck he's doing when we got in the truck to drive me home. We had a good talk about it all, and he's ashamed of it. I know he has the ability to stop that crap, so i'll trust him when he says he will. I do have more faith in my dad than my mother. At least he gives things an effort.
I could say more but I really just feel like leaving it at that. I'll do another update later.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| #27 - 'Love Is Only A Feeling' by The Darkness |
[14 Feb 2005|07:35am] |
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I had planned on doing this song for a while. I didn't do it on Valentine's Day on purpose. The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway
The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing
(It's here to stay)
'Cos love is only a feeling
Anyway.
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| Miss Mascot Photos |
[11 Feb 2005|09:36am] |
Maboroshi updated RisingSun.net with the photos from the Miss Mascot tryouts for Metrocon. Kate, Jessica and I just went to tag along but we got a few photos of our own. I must admit, I look like a zombie in a few of them (the hat I borrowed from Kate made the lighting really weird) but a few were still nifty. What's really cool though is that me and Jessica got photo of the week (you can see it on the site). It was our last picture that Mab was doing and because I couldn't do anything, I decided on a thinking pose. I'm so proud. The photo shoots Mab does are so fun. You can just fool around and every picture has a story.
Here's a photo of me that I thought was kind of cool.
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| 'Please Do Not Feed Or Molest The Aligators' |
[11 Feb 2005|07:31am] |
I'm finally back from Roy's and I had such an awesome time. I got back late yesterday (he was kind enough to not only drive me but drop me off at work). It wasn't easy bending the stuff we got to make the frame for the wings out of (it was steel) but I did it and i'm very happy with my results. Both sets of wings are very close to their pair. I've just got to put on the fabric, which will be very annoying. I attempted to last night but decided I needed some sleep.
Before Kate took me to Roy's, we went to a Sonic and got some messy food. Then we went to this thrift shop and I found a few things Jessica liked as well as this interesting PVC vest thing Kate talked me into buying. Unfortunately, the dress that Kate liked was gone but she did get some shoes for 50 cents!
The bell just rang, so i've got to go, I'll just close with that it was an awesome time. I can't wait to do it again! Bye, all.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| Isle Of The lost Posts |
[09 Feb 2005|11:43am] |
Now that i'm sitting here, i'm finding a lot of posts I never commented to, nor saw. I guess I have something to do for the next two hours after all!
Sorry for spamming your friend's list like that. Get back to what you were doing.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| #26 - 'You Spin Me Right Round' by Dead Or Alive |
[09 Feb 2005|11:24am] |
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This is the song! That's right!
Oh, and check out this kickin' new color.
Yeah I, I got to know your name
Well and I, could trace your private number baby
All I know is that to me
You look like you're lots of fun
Open up your lovin' arms
I want some
Well I...I set my sights on you
(and no one else will do)
And I, I've got to have my way now, baby
(and no one else will do)
And I, I've got to have my way now, baby
All I know is that to me
You look like you're havin' fun
Open up your lovin' arms
Watch out, here I come
*You spin me right round, baby
right round like a record, baby
Right round round round
You spin me right round, baby
Right round like a record, baby
Right round round round
I, I got be your friend now, baby
And I would like to move in
Just a little bit closer
(little bit closer)
**All I know is that to me
You look like you're lots of fun
Open up your lovin' arms
Watch out, here I come
(*Repeat)
I want your love
I want your love
(**Repeat)
(*Repeat and fade with ad lib)
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| I Still Snuck In Here! |
[09 Feb 2005|11:08am] |
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Live Journal just informed me that 'snuck' is not a word. Furthermore, there's nothing even close to it. Does sneak not have a past-tense by some flaw of nature? That's impossible! Rebel, people of people land! Use the word snuck!
Oh, and apparently 'sneek' is spelled 'sneak'. Well, I won't rebel against that. Still use snuck though!
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| Chillin' At The MCC |
[09 Feb 2005|10:53am] |
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Well, here I am at the... ::checks desktop picture:: yes, MCC computer lab, updating my journal for viewers like you. I'll be at Roy's today and staying the night so as being able to make the props for my EGA Moogle outfit. Unfortunately, this means i'll be missing school, and furthermore, missing work. Tis rather unfortunate (as previously stated) but it is a price I must pay for the making of my first EGA outfit. I feel like i'm repeating my self now, so i'm going to move to the next section of this entry.
My trip to Roy's shall be joyous, yet un-well planned. You see, while I considered that I must miss school today, I forgot that i'll miss school on Thursday too. The problem is more so missing work for a second day. I just can not do that, so i'll have to see what I can do. I also, sort of, kind of forgot to organize a ride home. Yeah... this may still end well though! I can do it! Oh, and i'm also excited because I brought my new game with all my controllers, thus possibly equaling awesome multi-player fun.
I was picked up from my house at 8:30 last night by Kate. We played a few games and such and then went to bed. I woke on my own this morning, thinking it was 9:59, when it was really 8:59 (that's a whole minute early on my part). We later played hide-and-seek with her cat and then proceeded to MCC (that's Manatee Community College for all you non Manatee Community College people) where we heard such smash hits as 'Drop It Like Its Hot' (assumable the name of the song). Then, after walking around finding out where Kate could "stuff" me, she snuck me into the computer lab, and thusly, I am here.
That's my entry and i'm sticking to it.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| Filthy, Filthy, Filthy... |
[08 Feb 2005|07:23am] |
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I had no time this morning and I wasn't able to get a shower. That always bothers me so much. I feel so dirty!
I was supposed to call Morgan and Roy last night but I fell asleep at 7:00 or so, so I must do that today. It's of vital importance that I talk to Roy about tomorrow and I need to know what's going on in my best friend's life.
We have FCAT today. That's Florida's standardized test that they make you take every other year. I believe this is my last one if I pass it. I'm not worried, as they're not that difficult.
Apparently Aaron got his eyebrows shaved, so i'm going to go look at that in a second.
I want to wash my hair!
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| A Most Entertaining Weekend |
[07 Feb 2005|09:12am] |
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I had such a wonderful time this weekend. On Friday, I was happy with my self because I got a good amount of work done. I didn't feel like Jack was disappointed with me or anything. After work, I went to Kate's house with Jessica to stay the night and I met Hannah who was also staying the night. She's a really nifty person and she's a graphic designer! Before we went to bed, they started up a game of Karaoke Revolution 2. I wasn't going to play until I saw that 'I Believe In A Thing Called Love' was on there. I had fun singing it, despite having an achy throat.
We woke up early to go to the mascot try-outs for Metrocon the next morning. It was in the Bradenton park, I believe. Maboroshi got some really nifty pictures (as always) which I might post later when he updates the site. I was just having the best time and I didn't feel unsocial at all. We later went to McDonald's and got some food. Then we went to another place for more tryouts and photos. On the way home, we stopped at Toys-R-Us and found Teen Titan plushies. I bought a game called Goldeneye: Rogue Agent (which I enjoy greatly). The only downside to Saturday was that after I got home, I felt really, really hopelessly sad after being around all those people. It felt so lonely.
On Sunday, TJ came over and played my game with me. He likes it a lot too. Jessica came over later but I was so sleepy by then. I got to bed plenty early, so I should be able to work well today. My back was hurting really bad the whole day, nothing was helping it.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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[04 Feb 2005|07:39am] |
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I'm feeling so empty. Aggravated because i can't identify my emotions. I've got no idea what to say really. It feels like everything has lost it's glimmer. I've come to terms with so many things that have been hurtful in my life, so why don't I feel better. I suppose the best way to say how I feel is that no matter what I do, nothing will ever be good enough. In the end, all is lost.
On a lighter note, i'm wearing a scottish scarf today.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| "Everything Will Be Alright" |
[03 Feb 2005|07:41am] |
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Well, the same pair of boots I had trouble with has been canceled from not one but three internet vendors. How bad can your luck be to have that happen three times in a row!? Especially when I really need them.
I've got to see what I can do about getting to Roy's house this weekend. I should have planned it more. I tried calling him last night but there was no answer. Those props must be made this weekend. I don't see any other possible time.
I'm at school, so i'm going to try and catch up on my work today. I'm not as stressed over it as I was yesterday.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| Do I Know You? |
[03 Feb 2005|07:33am] |
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when you tell me your name
i'll always wonder if you lied
for you see my friend,
i'll never know you on the inside
you'll always hold your secrets
and i'll always have mine too
i suppose this little act
is the best we can do
but what if there was a way
to learn of one another
we could lower our walls
and expose each other
wouldn't that be lovely
to not be so alone
all our deepest secrets
together they are shone
it seems like just a dream
but perhaps it could be real
surely you must admit, my friend
my idea has appeal ~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| Blasphemous Humour |
[02 Feb 2005|01:14pm] |
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I was reading some things about religion (heresy in particular) and I came across this. It's a joke meant to show the recent "heat" on what is seen to many as christian logic. Granted that no two Christians are the same, I found it humorous.
Religious fundamentalism, with its intolerance, short-sighted bigotry, and promotion of violence as a ready means of resolving conflict, has gotten a lot of bad press recently. But fundamentalists like a good joke as much as the rest of us unrepentant, Hell-bound sinners. In the interest of promoting understanding among faiths, Toad a la Mode presents this selection of jokes and riddles popular with fundamentalist believers of all persuasions.
Q: Why did the chicken cross the road?
A: It was God's will.
Q: Why did the turkey cross the road?
A: That was also God's will.
Q: Why did the heretic cross the road?
A: To do something sinful on the other side.
Q: Why did the heretic get run over by an ox-cart (or pick-up truck) while he was crossing the road?
A: Because he was sinful and he deserved it.
Q: Why did the true believer get run over by an ox-cart (or pick-up truck) while he was crossing the road?
A: Because our godless enemies wish to destroy us and everything we stand for and therefore we must destroy them first.
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| It Could Always Be Worse |
[02 Feb 2005|07:18am] |
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I've got multiple things on my mind. Many things aren't perfect right now but i've got positive things in life to look at too. I've still got to get many things sorted out. One step at a time, I suppose.
I'm drastically behind in my school work. I really have no idea how i'll catch up. I suppose i have no choice though, I have to. School work should be coming first, but priority was never a strong point of mine.
Work is actually picking up. The things I listed yesterday were very satisfying. I suppose a negative part to work right now would be the fact that i've been unable to save any money so far. I'm going to have to eventually. I've got Full Sail to look at in the future.
My white platform boots for the EGA moogle outfit were apparently put on back order, so my order for them has been removed. With less than two weeks away before that photo shoot, that's very unsettling. No idea what i'm going to do about that but if my shoes aren't white, that's going to ruin the whole outfit for me. It really wouldn't be better to go without them. I sent any e-mail to the company basically saying 'please do your best to tell me what i'm supposed to do about this mess'. I'm hoping that they'll get another pair in.
I woke up after an accidental nap last night because my mother was yelling at me about not doing laundry and I could barely stand. I have no clue what happened but I felt as if I was going to vomit as I lost all sense of balance and my vision was getting dizzy. I quickly stumbled back to my room and fell on my bed as this feeling in the back of my brain grew. It was so odd but, while there was little pain to it, I could feel this noise building up in a specific area in the back of my head. I couldn't hear my self think and I just screamed. I can't even explain what it was like.
It really bothers me that i'm missing school today. I'm determined to get caught up in school and go to work. I need the money. I can't fall behind. I'm going to see what I can do about all this today. First, I need to attempt to do laundry. I'm feeling a deal better as you can probably see from my being able to type, though still some what sick. I hope everyone has a good day at school.
~Little Dead Boy, Namless
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| #25 - 'Rain' by Yoko Kanno |
[31 Jan 2005|09:58am] |
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i don't feel a thing
and i stopped remembering
the days are just like moments turned to hours
mother used to say
if you want, you'll find a way
bet mother never danced through fire shower
walk in the rain, in the rain, in the rain
i walk in the rain, in the rain
is it right or is it wrong
and is it here that i belong
i don't hear a sound
silent faces in the ground
the quiet screams, but i refuse to listen
if there is a hell
i'm sure this is how it smells
wish this were a dream, but no, it isn't
walk in the rain, in the rain, in the rain
i walk in the rain, in the rain
am i right or am i wrong
and is it here that i belong
walk in the rain, in the rain, in the rain
i walk in the rain, in the rain
why do i feel so alone
for some reason i think of home
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